john71180

Fanime-KHAAAAAAAN!!!!!!!.....2009...

Tue, 26 May 2009 07:21:20 GMT

Had a lot of fun this year, I opted to do something different this year and host a small panel. It went quite well, though I ran out of time unfortunatelly, I thought I had another 5 or so minutes left. Had to cut off the last 4 minutes of 'final fantasy A +' much to the audiences dissapointment, but apparently Rueben langdon, who is the motion capture and voice of 'Dante' from the 'Devil May Cry' series, 'Ken Masters' from 'Street Fighter 4' and also the motion capture for 'Chris Redfeild' in 'Resident evil 5' was moved to be after my panel. Got to shake his hand let him know I'm excited to see 'Avatar', James Cameron's ground breaking new film thats 7 months away in December, of which Mr.langdon is doing motion capture with his own production company on.

I got to help out in the dealers room on a quick errand for one of the dealers who needed some coffee(gopher in training? naw!) and I was more social this year, talked to strangers...well they're all anime fans so they weren that strange...and yes, they were almost all women too....shaddup.

Felt strange only having Trevor as the familiar face of the khan this year as others have moved or were too buys, though I did get to abuse 'Nammer's', hang out with Liz and Karl( who I didnt see once during Sunday O.o), got to have a nice cameo from Paul, Keiris, Xiph and the squirmers on Saturday >:)

Still would have been nice to have Mel and Robert too, then we could have had a pull party of chaos! Instead we got a very nice and polite guy from new Orleans named Tony who happened to have a room at the marriot which was connected to the con, not like the fairmont which is about 4 blocks away. Tony was attending his first anime con and got to hang out with an online friend, his first time to CA and he was definitelly the perfect roomate.

Then we had Rachel Mills join up late, she didnt cause any drama or any problems which was cool, but I feel sorry for her as she's a struggling anorexic. Never seen someone with it up close, when you see how affected they are by what they 'have' to eat as well as why they 'have' to exercise you really understand how vile this dissorder is. Course I have Body Dysmorphic disorder which might as well be Anorexia's equally bitchy sister, so I could see where she was coming from and why she had her exercise routines and stuff.

It was nice that they had MUCH better Panels this year than last year, not to mention more Panels that I wanted to go too...but time only allows a few, Last year I went to maybe....2-3 panels, this year I went to six of them, yes my own panel included obviously :P

I also attended 'Anime Hell' which was a riot, I ended up chocking on my soda and almost spitting it all over the ailse. "hobo with a shotgun' trailer...epic.

Too bad the Con ended like all cons do...little too soon. so now I'm sad that I dont get to Khan anymore for a while. Back to reality....

*sigh's and blehs...

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 07:04:35 GMT

Well finally hit up the doctors office today regarding the fact that my meds arent as effective as they used to be, not too surprised that I'm being put on a second medication, but I would have rather had the current dosage increased a little. Didn't get to the pharmecy at target in time so I'll go pick up this other perscription tomorrow.

Cant say I really like having to be put on two types of med's, I am I no way a fan of being on my current meds, but I have no real choice in that. Been on them for 15 years, whats the rest of my life? Still, I dont like having to be on another type of meds, not just because its gonna cost more $$ to stay sane, but I'm worried I'm going to end up like those people who have to take like 5-7 types of medication a day for the rest of my life.

After about 2 weeks or so I'm suppossed to have a follow up appointment and see how I'm adjusting to the new meds, great another $75 down the drain.

Unfortunatelly I was also told that its probably time to go see a shrink again.*sigh* this is something I do have a problem with, and the majority of my problem is that psychiatrists are expensive.Though this...what, tuesday will be my 7th month anniversery at micahels and I need to see what all health insurance and stuff I'll be getting.

I do need to address a lot of shit in my life thats extremely personal, but I dont know if now is the time for that. O.o

Well, my Panel ha sbeen approved, I got my date and time on when it will be...and unfortunatelly only myself, trevor and the guy we're sharing a room with will be in the room.

damn economy has pretty much fumbled and cost all other interested parties from accompying us this year, oh well. Things will get better soon.

My Pico day animation on NG is about...70% done with 1 week to go...thats not that good, but it's better than last year when I wa sworking until 1AM on Pico day itself.f

Still hoping to make a few $$ on Pico day as the prize money is pletniful. But I'm also trying to have more fun this year, and I've bene having more fun too :)

Tis all for now. next week is gonna be a big week, get to upload my (Hopefully completed) Pico day animation, and I'm heading up North for about...4-5 days to visit my folks, and see my secodn nephew, he'll be 6 or so weeks then.

well that went well...

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 03:34:15 GMT

My mother is on the mend from her surgery, shes put in for a month off from work as it takes her longer to heal from stuff like this so I'm hoping she can rest up and go back to life as normal.

I on the other hand am starting to try to go ing back to being a happeir person. Though One current issue is hitting up the doctors office next week. I need to have my medication adjusted. I noticed a HUGE change in my mood last thursday. I literally shifted over the course of 6 hrs from....Happy...depressed...angry....sad....ready to kill someone...ready to kill many people...to perky and happy.

This isnt normal for me. I normally am one mood for many hours. Switching from seven different moods, two of them quite extreme over the course of six and a half hours. and I was having a huge problem keeping control over myself, so yeah this pretty much removes what little doubt I had about getting my meds adjusted. I got time for this next week so thats a plus.

I'm also up to page 30 on my Silent Hill adaptation. I've finished Act One, Harry is about 3/4ths of the way through Midwich Elementary, he's in Dark Silent Hill now and I'll finish off the Elementary school with his battle with the giant Lizard(Yes KC, the Lizard fairytale will be used)

and I'm really trying to plot out the next 60 pages. Which will be some of the most difficult as I need to introduce Dahlia, Kaufman and Lisa, as well as get into Alessa's past, the cults past, the drugs, as well as have Harry and Cybil connect with eachother as people. No this doesnt mean sex scenes or even kissing. But they need to connect on some levels.

But 60 pages int much time to do all this, the most I'll allow myself is 70 pages so we shall see how this new project goes.

I'm putting asid emy other animation project sot focus on this as I'm going to animate it and have act 1 up for next years halloween on Newgrounds.

...Um...crap.

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 05:38:06 GMT

Got an e-mail tonight that my mother is going under the knife tomorrow at about 7 Am. Apparently her Bladder has disconnected from where its supposed to be in her body and they have to surgically re-attach it.

I'm pretty sure that this is the Lupus attacking her body, really not cool...ok I lied, its really fucking horrible.

I've known for a few years that the lupus shortens your lifespan and really wreaks havoc on your body, and my moms body isnt in very good condition, even though shes only 49 (for another 3 months and 2 weeks) I get the feeling internally her body is probably a lot older and damaged.

I hope all goes well on tomorrows surgery. its not emergency surgery as she and my father have known about this for a while and the surgery has been planned for a few weeks now.

bleh. Hope all goes well.

six months on thursday...

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 04:35:44 GMT

I will have worked at Michaels for 6 months thus thursday...and its payday too...well until I get my direct deposit set up on this weekend friday is technically payday, but this is a week of many odds and ends.

The odds are that I'm finishing up a roughly week long break from work (minus getting called in on Friday and Sunday, extra hours = better paycheck )and am almost done with my latest animated short for newgrounds.whic is alwasy odd to me as it feels like I've been working forever on each and every short I work on.

I'm also hopefully hitting up Sushi Totorro with Animekid this thursday to celibrate him finishing the quarter and then we get to finish the anime 'CHAOS: HEAD', assuming all works out as planned of course. how is this odd? Well come one, I get to eat at Sushi Totorro with paul AND we get to finish the anime series. It's odd to be so fortunate to do so as real life usually intervenes.

Unfortunately with the 'odds', comes the 'ends'. Starting this saturday I loose some more freedom.

That rancid little peice of shit moves in on Saturday, thus ending a lot of personal freedom I've got around the house. I have to share my kitchen with him, and unfortunatelly will have to share some of my time with him as well. The Kitchen I dont care much about, its the fact I'm expected to be involved in his life that I dont like.

I've learned something over the past day, if I can manage to drag my ass out of bed at 9:45am and shower off,shave, brush hair etc, its 10:20 by the time I finish all that. On a day off I have NOTHING but time to myself and I can create feeling a little more open minded.

I mean I've finished some artwork, almost finished the latest animation(and put a little more work into the next animation) and managed to write a little too. Thats a lot for one day, and I've done more today that I usually get done in half a week.

No real distratcions...minus an upset stomach, and having to get up and move around and get some exercise as I cant sit around for 7 hrs a day total. I can get up and move around the house and pretty much get left alone. and I like that.

That chnages this saturday, my days off work most likelly will be filled with interruptions from either the kid, or my grandparents wanting me to get involved with the kid.

Cant say I like that really. I'm only now just starting to break free of artist block an dstuff and my 'well' is filling up and I can multitask as much as I used too and be able to accomplish more animation and writing than I've been doing the past few months.

I suspect I'm going to have to improve upon what I do with my time now as I may be loosing a chunk of it for 'family' stuff.

This kidn of gets in the way of my choice to be a happier person, as dealing with this kid and the side of the family I want nothing to do with doesnt make me happy.

thank god I should be getting that lock on the door to protect my precious from the kid.

My laptop is pretty much my only real posession I have in life, and on it is my future. Gotta defend it from this stupid little shit.

So yeah, there are some good odds this week, but its the ends that I worry about right now.
Heres hoping I can get the lock set up on my door so I can go to work not worrying if the kid is trying to get a hold of my laptop.

...I want Chicken Teriyaki and Miso now.

and I R Teh uncle again...

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 05:13:36 GMT

Well my second nephew was born early this morning at 4:30 Am., one month early. Oddly enough despite being 4 weeks early he's not under weight. In fact he's 6 lbs 10 ounces. being that his brother was like 7lbs 4 ounces and he was born a few days late I dont think thats a huge problem. we're all kind of stunned that hes here already so soon though.

So as a result the little squirmer has to stay in an incubator for a few days. Might toss up a pic of him as soon as I get one. Nice to have something good happen in 2009 for a change.

Ok, 3 months late but!...

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 06:49:57 GMT

I'm going to make a new years resolution. I'm going to try to be a happier person. I've been thinking it over and after last weeks fiasco of rotteness, it kind of hit me:

Why am I so iffy? I've got a lot of good stuff in my life.

I've got a decent, but sometimes bleh part time job.
I've got a little $$ in the bank.
I've got friends.
I've got that supid AA after 9 years of college.
I've made a little $$ of newgrounds and there is a demand for my odd ideas there which is pretty flattering.
I'm apretty talented artist.
I've got some good ideas for future projects.
I'm hitting up fanime this year with a decent sized crowd at a reduced price.
I"m sleeping slightly better than usual.

I'm going to do my damndest to make the summer trip plan by amanda a Kidnap Amanda and drag her ass down to LA so we can all attend AX as a group so I can have doubel KHAN!-age this year...maybe try for BLizz-KHAN! too...wait Stevens a Blizzard grunt now shouldn the get us discounts!?

So in short, gonna try to perk up. Happy people live longer and are more satisfied!

I think I'll try to get a smidge more out of life.

Stress...

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 07:24:47 GMT

from work, from life, everywhere just is buttfucking me this week. I need another outlet. writing and animation isnt enough.

Ugh, 10 years already?

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 06:54:26 GMT

As I returned froma calm shift at work cook dinner and hop online I notice a facebook friends request in my e-mail, from 'Stephanie' I only know 2 Stephanies, and they're both at work and dont have my e-mail addy.

So I check out the notification in my e-mail...and its my 10 year high school reunion. In ten years I've managed to get myself an AA in film, drivers liscense, and use those skills sporadically, and basically float about through life.

So basically someone managed to find me on facebook and add me, so I looked over all the people added, some I remember, lot I didnt. Was a surprise to see who joined the army, graduated from what college, got married had kids. But in short, I dont give a fuck.

I hardly remember high school for whatever reason and what I do remember, I'd rather forget because it wasnt worth remembering, neither were the people. I am partially interested in going to see an old teacher who made an impact on my life...but thats it.

My friends from college hold more meaning to me than however many hundred strangers from 15 years did. And I think thats that, so I just set 'ignore' to the friend invite and moved on to writing this LJ entry.

Just feels kind of odd to realize that its been 10 years since I managed to get our of that hellhole. I dotn remember high shcool much, I just remember not liking it at all really.

On a different note this has been a pretty off week for me.

Yesterday was a pretty bad night at work(managed to be $15 short in my register, NOT good. and confusing as hell as to how it could have happened) as well as dealing with stupid rude customers(ruder than normal) consistantly.

Tonight was a better shift, but then getting this dumb high school reunion bullshit wasnt desireable. On Friday I have to hit the dentist and get a cracked filling fixed($100 right there)so not bad for a tuesday.

On th ebright side, I've finishe dmy taxes, gonna double check tomorrow before I submit them, I get my paycheck on friday get to hang out with friends and I have a 24 hr week of work next week.

Decent paycheck coming my way there, so heres hoping.

MUST..SALVAGE...THIS...WEEK!...moo.

Fuck pt2, with a happier outlook.

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 06:51:48 GMT

Ok well yesterday I was got called into work at 12:30-5PM....BUT!!!!! The night before I was asked if I wanted to work from 5-9:30. So I thought "Oh! If I go in now I can have the rest of the night to myself and CAN go goof off at Liz and Moo's place." WRONG! Secret 7 1/2 hr shift trap!

so I ended up staying at work from 12:30-8PM. I was thuroughly tired and pretty miserable up until the last 90 minutes in which I managed to make 1k in cash in the register(which automatically requires the register to get pulled, and the money counted and deposited) and its always a nice feeling to get that rare occasion when you do this as it's ALMOST like an extra 10 minute break. Gotta fill out some paperwork and stuff.

So at about....2Pm the mother of the kid I placed the edge of my finger under her jaw and asked her to stop chewing with her mouth open called up. The store manager asked me what I did, I explained it and....Nothing happened. He told me dont do it again, as myself and the store can be ass raped by the law because of this. Thats it. No real reprimand, no losing any points, and no 'Your ass is fired'.

I DID however find out some VERY interesting things about the one manager there that no one likes.Shes really pretty abbrasive, nit picky, and pretty nasty so it turns out everyone in the store tries to avoid her at all costs. I thought it was just me she was singling out and being a bitch too, but no its EVERYONE!

NO ONE really likes working with her as she treats us all the same: like crap. Like we dont know how to do our own jobs, like she has to constantly supervise us to make sure things run smoothly. Shes basically a control freak.She does have some moments where shes cool, but they've become rare. So I dont know what to make of her really.

AFter I finishe smy shift I hung out with a co worker, and a former employee who was visiting the store. Feels good to bullshit with co-workers, in this case about the manager I just described. She pulled some pretty bad shit on the forme remployee who showed up a week after he quit just to visit, say hi.

She told him to 'Stop bothering my guys and let them work' which is VERY off for a manager to do as he WAS also shopping, thus making him a customer. Well she popped back a few minutes later as he was catching up with someone else and she said something that is pretty damn shocking...."Get the hell out of my store, or I'll have security throw you out!"....Wow.

You dont hear those words from a manager EVER.Makes no sense to me but hey, control freaks can be like that.She kind of reminds me of Pauls AKAMI boss in terms of bullshit levels. She's not consistant, but she has her moments.

Bu tyeah, possible leagal backlash and bullshit avoided, still have my job, and still have my sanity. Bring on Sunday.

Fuck...

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 06:22:07 GMT

well things were going pretty good I've been managing about 17 hrs per week at work, despite being schedule for 8.5 hrs a week for 2 weeks now, next week schedule has me officially scheduled for 17 hrs of work, payday is Friday, I finished my latest newgrounds animation.....and then I fucked up. Pretty bad too.

Ok so as a cashier I get to see people at their sloppiest, be it people who dont have cupons and ar ebegging for them from me, crotch scratching, bad tempers, the usual. I dont like I tbut I can tolerate it, well there is one thing I simply cannot tolerate...chewing with your mouth open.

it just drives me insane to hear lips smacking, as I'm 2 feet away this pet peeve become smore intensly disgusted than usual as they're just smacking and breathing right in my face.

There is no age discrimination here, men women, boys girls, all ages are doing this now.The worst was some asian woman and her gum really loud at ear level...and she didnt speak english so my telling her' could you please chew with your mouth closed?' didnt register.

Today for whatever reason I didnt shrug it off and instead reacted without thinking, which is strange for me as I always try to think before I act.

A woman and her 10 year old daughter?(grand daughter?) pop up at my register and the girl is smacking away...loudly.

somehow in an instant I managed to lean over, place the tip of my finger under her jaw and say 'Please stop chewing with your mouth open'. Then I realized what I did and turned bright red, I touched a customer. Her mother(grandmother?) corrected me and apologized and tried to explain why I id what I did, but didnt reall yget a chance too, she asked me a question about where an item was located at.

5 minutes later they go to the cashier behind me(the cashier lead no less) and are there for a good 2 minutes. I didn thave the heart to go ask the cashier lead if she mentioned my thoughtless act, instead when It wa stime fo rme to count my register I told my Manager(the cool one) what I did and she was pretty surprised. Told me I should under no circumstance ever do that, or even correct a customer on something like this.

No matter how disgusting it is. So I dont know if the woman with the kid is gonna complain about me or what, but I'm assuming so as people do love to complain, so we'll see what happens tomorrow.

Best tell one of the store managers that I acted without thinking and stuff. But I'm no fool, shit like this CAN get you fired.Being that A: I like my job, and B: the economy is in for another year of bullshit, It's not a good time for something like this to occur.

Took a few hours for my face to quit burning red, now I'm just dreading tomorrow's closing shift. I've screwed up enough at work, I really would just like to be able to have a smooth month of no mistakes or issues or anything like that.

But as thats hoping for too much, I just hope that the fore mentioned inccident doesnt cost me a nice little job. I'm just now establishing credibility and reliability here after 3 1/2 months. I'd like to contunue to do so.

Wewt, fanime hotel room happyness.

Tue, 03 Feb 2009 05:38:11 GMT

Too bad I still didnt get the $88 per night room I wanted very much.Because this news would have definitely sweetened that deal so much further.

The current estimated hotel bill of $500 got slashed by $100 today. I was just approved by Tom Fulp the creator of newgrounds to represent newgrounds at the con. I'm gonna give a panel on flash animation(still waiting for an e-mail from Fanime marketing to see if I qualify for an industry badge) but Tom was kind enough to agree to this AND sponsor me as well, aside from some promotional stickers and keychains, he's tossing in $100 for the hotel bill.

So that means if another 3 people confirmed to our party, we can expect to pay about $110, for the hotel room and registration per person. Not too shabby, I really do wish I had gotten the Marriott's $88 per night deal, god that combined with this would have been incredible.

And yes that's $500 with the tax included(Expected $80 in tax to our $420 hotel bill)

So far its Myself, Trevor, and Robert confirmed for the room. We need at least 5 people minimum, but as before six people can slash the expense quite further.

Also should I not get the industry approved badge I, and one other person (technically my assistant) still manage to save $15 on our full con badge.

I have no clues if someone with the industry badge gets any perks other than like maybe an extra discount on a con badge and like $2 off parking, but we'll see how things go from here.

Right now things are looking pretty damn good. Got half a party organized for the hotel room and a $100 Buffer in the hotel room cost.

here's hoping :).

Fur-con, now fanime con....

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 07:32:47 GMT

Arr...I'm happy but sad. I did enjoy myself a lot at the furry convention and am gonna go for Fanime and AX this year if possible.

Unfortunately the planned fanime trip hit a snag, there was this WONDERFUL deal at the marriot $88 per night for a single, then they had $88 for a DOUBLE as well. But I spent the night mulling things over wondering if I really was gonan do this, got Trevor's confirmation earlier today just to make sure I had a partner in crime for a $400 or so endeavor...and then it happened.

I didnt act fast enough and the Marriot is now full. so I had to settle for the crowne Plaza hotel's $99 per night for a room on Friday-Monday.

So the room is reserved now which is a plus but after doing the math it would appear that the minimum amount of people to make this work would be 5, though it would be highly preferred to get 7 people.

Kind of bummed out that I didnt act fast enough on the fairmont deal because $88 per night with a room of 5 people for a double room is a damn STEAL.I could have saved a good $50 or so in room expenses.

Only real problem is that half the usual con crew has moved on in life and is either busy or not interested. as Mrs Mel is a student again,Mr. Chris is obviously busy with keeping gutter rats in check, Mr. K.C is in Fresno, and many other friends are busy with life.

Thus far I have two people, including myself which is a good start, 1/3rd of the way to go. I just wish I knew more anime folks who were up for this AND trustworthy.

Good roomates for a con is Important, as is planning. This still counts as last minute, but when I hit up the furry con I was reminded how much I really just love going to cons and enjoying the atmosphere, the conversations, costumes and just having fun.

Yeah last years fanime wasnt too hot, but ya know its up to us to make a con more fun.

How do you make a con more fun? well get a good group first, then..umm...well I'll figure that part out soon.

Well I just found out I'm no longer a seasonal employee , I'm now an official part time employee :).they're keeping me on it looks like :).

Only downside is that my hours suck balls, only 9 hrs this week.This old woman who doesnt work with the team and has held us up many times and is also kind of creepy has like frigging 17 hrs this week. My jaw dropped at that.

But still the economy sucks and having a job with ANY hours is just good on its own.

So time to start saving up for the con! I'm gonna try to get together a crew, and I'm gonna try to do something different this year than the last few years, what is it? Only have half an idea right now, but we'll see how it develops.

yar it be 2009 now...

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 03:36:30 GMT

well lets see, I started to year off pretty much broke due to getting sick and hitting up the doctors office, now I've managed to get a good $165 or so in my bank account (after buying some groceries) and I should have a smidge over $300 by my next paycheck. So things are looking up, I'm no longer sick, I've paid off all by bills(minus $25, of the $75 I"m working off with my grandparents) and I'm looking at getting my bank account back up. Only thing that sucks is that I did the math...I'd have almost $700 in there right now if I didnt get sick, oh well. Life happens.

right now I'm just grateful to be back to normal, have a few dollars in the bank, and still be employed. Found out another employee got fired, this one for stealing. So while thats sad, it does mean I should be able to maintain at least 13-17 hrs a week of work. It really does pay to be a straight arrow in life, so many people screw themselves over by stealing from work and other places.

Well possibly in about 1-2 months a cousin of mine will be living here. He's the son of the Aunt I hate with a passion, and hes a screw up because she doesnt know how to raise kids and neither does her dumbass husband. they basically are control freaks and raised their kids with a bible and plenty of hard core right wing BS.

So naturally when their oldest grows up he doesn't want anything to do with them, but hes also a stupid dumbass who doesn't listen to rules. so with this asshole moving in here, he might try to get into my computer as well as other shit.

He does that I WILL kick his ass. everything I have is my computer, it has my scripts, my flash animations and plenty of future projects that will lay the foundation for a career...and Left4dead( Paul :P )

what I might end up doing is making him sign a contract that if he gets into my computer he owes me $100 on the spot to be paid.

I will hold him to it and make this a legal document.

well thats all for now, I wont know when I'll be able to hit up the Furry con this weekend and pester Kyle. So we'll see, I should know by Sunday.

2-6 weeks..WHAT!?

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 06:39:07 GMT

Ok well looks like 2009 is off to a bust for me thus far, fist off I'm sick, I caught a nasty viral strain of 'hives' called 'Urticaria' or something and as a result of hitting up doctors office I'm now broke, but hiting up work allowed me to refill my bank account some. My pacheck has been sitting at work for over a week before I picked it up as I've actually been sick for 2 weeks.

week 1 it was fatigue, sluggishness sore throat, the basic common cold.then last Saturday night BAM! My hands break out in hives and my fingers swell up, they stay that way for about 2 days before returning to normal.

We thought it might have been a food allergy(not allergic to anything though, but things can change in life) so finally we hit up the doctors office, get some temp-o-meds to help me out and a blood test. Waiting on the blood test results still, they'll be in on monday. Basically the blood test is checking to see if I've developed any allergies to anything. so I'll know by Monday whats up there.

But yeah I ALSO fount out this nasty virus takes between 2-6 weeks to go away...yeah I had to miss 4 days of work because of this shit and I return to work tomorrow. Wouldnt you know it after 3 days of small outbreaks here and there BAM! 30 min after eating something I break out big time and 2 fingers start to swell up some.Even now my hands have the red bumps of bitchyness on them.

A hot soak in the tub fixed that for the most part, but I'm pretty miserable now.

The doctors visit and everything cost me like $230,but I missed 4 days of work, at roughly $36 a day I'm out an additional $144 dollars... Which means in total I've lost $374 dollars because of this bullshit virus.

I feel very repulsive and am nervous about going to work tomorrow, this shit isnt contagious or anything, and Benedryl keeps the outbreaks at bay, but I feel like such a freak and also feel bad for having to miss work. I really do like my job a lot, and the seasonal folks stop working after next week,a few people get chosen to stick around and I have no clue if I'll make the cut after this mess.

I'd like to hang onto this job as long as I can. I've actually never felt very happy with my previous jobs as I am at this one.

So we'll see, here/s hoping that this stupid virus dies a quick death and I can go back to being normal again. I've already had to change my diet to eating neutral food(crackers, chicken soup, yogurt,apple juice, carrots etc...) because right now my body chemistry is a bit of a mess, I really do want to go back to just being healthy again.

Blood test results on Monday...yay.

so THATS why...

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 10:53:45 GMT

KC loves Chai Latte so much, I'm getting over being sick right now and my grandmother brought me what I thought was some kind of hot cocoa, but it smelled different and after taking a sip, wow. its really amazing stuff, cleared my throat and head and gave me some stamina.

Well X-mas is over, I made it through a lousy X_mas eve 9-5:30 shift, in which returning home I discovered someone rear ended the car and did a little damage...then my ba dluck continued, when I fucked up on X-mas day and drove over a small cement thingy in the parking lot and gopt stuck, some kind people helped me get unstuck, only took 1 minute to fix the issue, and THEN, Saturday night I accidentally clip the edge of a parking lot sidewalk edge and popped a tire. Spent 1 hr changing it at home, had to clean off the grease on the jack because it had grit in it,re-grease it and then change the tire with the spare.My first flat tire, gla dmyt uncle and grandfather could help.

Needless to say my driving luck and skills have NOT been very good this past week so I'm hanging up my key's for a little bit. Need to calm down, my bad luck has actually started when that fucking UPS truck almost hit me in a parking lot.

Hopefully it will go away.

Oh dear god, the Indian women are at it again!

Thu, 11 Dec 2008 07:37:40 GMT

I got a taste of true stress last Monday, a glimpse of hell, and I survived it. Though it has made me a angrier person in a lot of ways its also made me a stronger person.

So last Monday I had a 4 hr shift that was quite stressful, I only had to work from 11am-3:30Pm, but unfortunately 12Pm is when everything just went to hell, the next 2 hrs and 45 minutes were vicious.

A Line that would not shrink,but would not grow either, myself and the other I think 5 cashiers were working hard to make this line go away, but people just kept coming, and coming and coming. I didnt end up getting my 15 minute breather until 45 minutes before my shift ended.

Moist folks wee cool, but there were several rude men and women who always make a difficult situation worse, well in this case, the usual rich bitches from Saratoga all showed up to do returns, its like these 5-7 Indian women show up to do a return on three $5 items and then that's it...WHY BUY IT IF YOU DONT WANT IT!?

I only had to deal with three of them, but good god you stupid bitches WHY!? do you know how time consuming and stressful it is for us cashiers in a vicious situation of people who WANT to be in and out of the store as fast as they can? especially when there are about 60 of them and 5 of you.

Whats been really pissing me off is the cunts who knit show up with spools of yarn that have obviously been partially used as we have to take it back anyways.

Now there is always a legitimate reason to return an item, maybe you bought too much, or something isn't the right color, or even you found out you didn't need it in the first place...but NOT on a weekly basis! Its so goddamn stupid! thinking about it for prolonged period's of time just really burns.

What really burns my ass is that I didnt get to leave my register until 15 minutes after my shift ended. cashiers need to get pulled 10 min before their shifts end, so I had to sit around like a dumbfuck for about 30 minutes until I could leave. We were that busy, and I was very angry and felt a little unappreciated as I called for two managers to pull me.

My knuckles are still sore from my slamming them into the wall. But you gotta get the stress out somehow or else it just eats you up.

Well today one of the stupid Indian women who always return shit was back...she bought something though, which made me happy, as today was a little rough but better than monday...then the cunt hands me a small bag with a $3.99 item and says she wants to do a return....you stupid whore, WHY!? WHY DO YOU ALWAYS FUCKING DO THIS!? THIS IS THE THIRD TIME IN THREE WEEKS!!!!!(no I'm not making this up at all, seriously)

Oh well, to make matters worse a co-worker is showing some interest in me. we're two different personality types, she s a huge bar hopping party going extrovert, and I'm me.She has the mouth of a sailor too, which is amusing, but once again, I'm me.

Times like this make having body dysmorphic disorder really hard I truly find the concept of some one finding me attractive in the slightest infuriating and revolting. It really does piss me off in ways even I don't understand. It ALMOST makes me wish I was just regular emo as then I could write a pathetic poem and get over myself on a blog...wait a minute.

Well regardless, I really do want to survive the holiday season. Fuck X-mas, its all about Halloween. 2 more weeks of listening to terrible music and long lines and things shall gradually restore to the previous balance.

well Paycheck No.2 is on the horizon...

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 04:08:52 GMT

This thursday I gets my second paycheck, which is good because my bank account is hungry and wishes to Om-Nom da money.

Well My chances of working more than seasonal have slightly improved. I heard from one of the managers that the head manager as well as the manager who hired me like me, so they gave me more hours.

Which is cool but I've gone from 18-22 hrs, to 30 hrs this week. which IS nice...but I only have one day off this, week and tomorrow I work from 9am-5:30PM. I ended up working last tuesday to cover for some asshole who has apparently quit with out giving any real notice or has suddenly left on a short vacation. But being the fucker was suppossed to work today and I noticed on the daily schedule that they werent able to contact him its safe to assume hes no longer working here.

Which isnt really cool as I was only suppossed to work a 25 Hr shift this week, but am now pulling 30 Hrs. Yes it DOES mean I gets a fatter pay check next time around which is quite cool, it also means I'm closing for two nights in a row, which can be as exhausting as a 7 hr shift.

All I have to do is get through the hellish 9am-5:30Pm shift tomorrow and the rest of my week ought to be easier.

Its interesting working the holiday season again, people have gotten a lot dumber in a lot of ways and a lot more tolerant in others.

A good 3rd of the people who come in with cupons find out that the cupon will not work on the idem they desire as its on sale, they're dissapointed but cool with it. Very few have been dicks about this.

In terms of stupidity I have to say this, I'm REALLY starting to dread ringing up Indian women. Why you ask? Well two reasons A: They're the ones that always..ALWAYS return vast quantities of previous purchases! Why bother buying half the shit you picked up if you're gonan return it tomorrow!?

And B: they're indeccisive and rude. It holds up the lines, makes the cashiers anxious, and generally just annoys everone when the person in the front of the line speaks with a 'superior tone' about why this item was on sale, even though the sale ended 2 days ago, and or why this cupon should still be valid even though its expired.

I spent about 10 minutes with one woman who couldnt make up her mind about buying a thanksgiving floral arrangement. I literally climbed up the ladder and brought down the item for her, and then 3 minutes later put it back up and brough her down a different one, finally after doing that sh eproceede dto ask me the most obnoxious question we all get about custom floral" this item is 80% off, will it go any lower than this if I wait?'

...its 80% off, its 80% off of $49.99, thats like $16 for a really nice looking fake plant. Thats a bargain, thast a steal, thats a slow as you'll get it if you cant pay $16 for somehting that wa spreviously $49.99 then you're either a cheapskate freak or a loser.

After I explains this too her two more times she handed me the thanksgiving custom floral and said she'd be back later.

This annoyed me greatly. bu6t I 'sigh' it off and do something else.

Today I actually had a perfect example of stupidity that was just priceless.

Cashiers close their registers 15-20 minutes before they're off work, so you can take the til back to the managers office and spend the next 10 min organizing receipts, cupons, checks and counting the $$.

So i close my register after an employee sale a big nosed stodgy looking middle aged white woman carrying 3 larg epicture frames is about2 yard away and approachign me and I say 'this register is closed, register 7 can help you out' So she goes in line and about 5 min later I get my til taken care of and the woman hasnt been up to the cashier in Reg 7. Another woman is doing a return/exchange large one too like 12 items or more.

The return/exchange process is time consuming can take up to about 5 minutes-8 minutes depending on how much stuff is being returned. Big nose drops her 3 empty frames on my counter claiming that they're heavy and shes tired of holding them but is still going to buy them. Kind of makes sense they can be a bit heavy, but I HAVE seen folks hang onto them for about 10 min straight with no issue before.

So 6 min have passed, the one woman is still exchanging stuff but thast too long for Big nose so she picks up her stuff and complains, I direct her to register 2 as Register 2 is open and only has one customer.

She walks towards register 2...but passes it to go to Register 1, where the lead cashier is. Just as shes about 2 yards away the lead cashier LEAVES register 1 to help me empty my register.

Apparently that was the last straw for bignose who flips out and exclaims to her husband' They're NOT gonna serve me! this is ridiculous!" they leave. I laugh at this because this woman is so rude and stupid that she doesnt realize that waiting an extra 2 minutes isnt the end of the world.

I empty my register and have to wait for a manager to go with me to the office, I laugh with the other cashier as wlel as the lady doing the return/exchange how impatiant and stupid the woman who flipped out one minute ago was. they both snicker and shake their heads, so I wait another minute and turn around and see my manager...and THEN see Big nose is back and bitching at him for her not getting checked out.

She makes it sound like shes been waiting for 20 minutes to get checked out by a cashier...I ALMOST interruped and said "ma'am I was here the whole time. You were in line for 7 minutes tops. When you were upset I informed you register 2 was open, and you ignored what I said and went to register one where the lead cashier was on her way to help me empty my register. After you complained to your husband and left, register 2 had finished helping out the previous customers and was open. All you had to do wa sbe patient, but you chose to lose control You have no one to blame for your frustration but yourself.'

I may end up saying somehting like this to another customer who cant wait an extra minute or two in the coming weeks as it only gets busier from here.

I've actually had some amusing experiences I should post here to read. some of them are just little stories that are amusing, others are surreal and monty python-esque.

GOD I HATE THAT BITCH!

Sat, 15 Nov 2008 23:05:00 GMT

Stupid FUCKING CUNT!...Ok so there's this Aunt I have who is just a stupid stupid creature. Shes an attention whore when it comes to my grandparents, basically as she was a neurotic child who needed extra attention as a kid she eventually became the favorite child of my grandparents.

SO at age like 43 that still holds true, she call's like 4 times a week to talk to my grandparents and tell them how one of her kids has gotten a little bit taller, and has figured out how to wipe his ass with out her help.

Basically she cant seem to go a few days with out getting my grandparents blessing, Most kids when they grow up talk to their parents a few times a month over the phone, but shes such a loser she has to do it so often I call her a' Needy bitch' whenever I check the answering machine and see two messages from her that are like 1 hr apart.

So here is the new reason I'm pissed off at her...About 4 years ago My folks came across an opportunity to get my grandfather a dog, the last dog they got him was like 10 years prior and it was a dachshund, well he loved that little dog, but the poor guy's back went out after he turned 4 and he had to be put to sleep. My grandfather was heart broken.

So after a while my folks were looking into getting him another dog, and by chance we ended up with 'Stinker'(Jammers) and my grandfather loves his dog, doesnt get to do as much with him as he did with the dachshund, but that was about 12 years ago and hes gotten older and his bodies changed, but he takes Stinker out for walks, brushes him at night after he gets fed, and plays with him frequently.

I'm sure you know where this is headed, thats right, the stupid bitch is getting him a dog now.
WWWWWWWWHY!? Seriously, why!? One dog is more than enough for my grandparents to handle, it really is, Not to mention that my grandfather IS 84 years old now and Stinker is like 7 or so years old. They're both really the right age for eachother, My grandfather wont be around forever and getting him a puppy isnt cool.

So why does she do it? Because shes a stupid needy attention whore bitch who just cant exist with out being the 'prodigal child', its really disgusting to see her lick my grand parents asses clean when she visits in person too.

*sigh* this is ridiculous, I'm glad my grand father is happy that hes getting a gift from the favorite and all, but I dont think its right. Not just because its an attempt to over shadow Stinker as he was a gift from my folks, but as before I dont know how much longer my grandfather will be around, and to give him a 1 year old puppy if hes only going to be around for say 5 more years isnt fair to the dog, or my grand mother who will then be in charge of the dog.

All this for some extra praise, I really HATE that neurotic Needy Bitch and hope she gets an extra hard karma tic bitch slap.

I placed in the halloween competition...

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 06:33:26 GMT

Got 9th place, was listed as the scariest animation and earned $250, giving $30 to the voice actress, and $80 to Herr Nguyen in order to pay off the Rocklin and pizza debt.

the remaining $140 is mine and can sit in my slowly growing bank account. I'll get my first pay check in 2 weeks from today or so.

Be nice to have a good $500 in the bank account before the years end.

So yeah Wewt, made a few bucks with my hard work, always pleasing.

MY halloween animation...

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 20:36:13 GMT

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/467097

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Hope it entertains you all at the very least. 3 weeks of animation, about one week of sound editing have gone into this.

I"m thrilled to have it done and online for people to see.

B...F..T...

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 20:10:41 GMT

or 'Bout fucking time' I got it in the mail yesterday, My degree finally came. only took...five months? Five and a half months? Oh well, Hopefully it wont take me that long to find employment, even if its seasonal, which it most likely will be based on how the economy. Oh well I somehow lucked out and got a job interview on Monday at 11 a.m., so I'll do my best to charm the pants off the interviewer the best I can.

I'm also almost halfway done on this Halloween animation for newgrounds. Hopefully I can place this time and make a few $$'s.

Well I didnt sleep well last night, and did 2 hrs of yardwork at my uncles so I'm gonna crash for a smidge.

thats a HUGE plus...

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 07:38:17 GMT

Ok when my mother had a lump by her collarbone it ended up being fluid that had filled int he tissue, so that was cool...but then they found a lump in her throat, that was not.

Now we found out that lump was just a swollen lymph node and swollen tonsil due to 'silent' acid reflux, put simply my mother being hypoglycemic she isnt allowed to eat certain types of food...well that doesnt stop her from snacking every so often and eating them, so this is the end result, so this news is cool.

However after now 3 weeks back in Ca I am still unemployed, mix that in with the current economic issues fucking up the country the job market is not so hot, I have about 14 applications out there sitting in a hat waiting to be pulled out by an employer. Yes that's how they really do it.

This week I should be getting my diploma in the mail finally. BFT(bout fucking time)

there are two competitions I want to participate this month, newgrounds annual Halloween animation contest(they want something REALLY scary) and the DVX user halloween shortfilm competition.

MY problem is malignant writers/artist block though. I'm fucking livid that I cant seem to animate or even write..of all the fucking times to be hit by this shit it hits me now.

...CURSE. hopefully this week will break that problem ...hopefully.

John needs money and pride back!

Back in Ca...

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 07:04:21 GMT

Been here for almost 1 week now. Thus far 9 places have my job applications, I had one call back but the situation wasnt favorable.

so Now I'm hoping to get myself at least 25 hrs from either Gamestop, Blockbuster, or that any mountain outdoor sport store. They're close, they're simple jobs, and they'd help me well enough financially to continue to pursue my artistic needs.

so we'll see, I"m very burned out and stressed right now.While I am i n a much better environment, until I have myself a part time job I wont get much time to myself to create. And I need that time to create in order to get ahead.

Red Head, Romanticide, my scripts, my artwork, storyboards, animation for Halloween contest at newgrounds, nothing has really been tended too. I've managed to squeeze in a few measly hours on like 2 projects over 3 days...thats not exactly progress. I need some 'Me' time.

Hopefully I can get some soon, because I dont need a meltdown.

I came back to Ca for the job opportunities, knowing that my living situation here with the old folks would change. Unfortunately the explained changes when that would happen we went over 9 years ago seem to have changed...Bleh. when I find out what updates they've chosen to make to the original list of changes then I'll gripe about them, for now I 'bleh ' at them because I'm burned out some.

I need a good 5 hours to create. hopefully tomorrow I'll receive them.

11 or so days until my return...

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 19:12:05 GMT

well my stay in Oregon is almost over, the situation here has changed. Since loosing that sweet editing job, job hunting here has been stagnant, and only after I choose to leave does 1-2 places put up their 'help wanted' signs. but I'm not staying here regardless.

The older of my two little sisters broke up with her boyfriend of 2 years, and ended up moving back home. So I gave her what was originally her room, then became my room, back to her.

To make things in the house a little more cramped, my little sister is again pregnant, so I'm going to be an uncle again.

When my folks found out they were going to be grandparents again, they laughed. apparently my folks didnt have much luck with contraceptives when they were married earlier. Which is why they ended having the 4 of us so close to eachother in age, while they DID want all of us I think they wanted a longer period of time between each child to save up a little more $$.

So when I move back I get to pick up a few pieces of my old life while starting my new life. I need a job, I need to make some $$ and save it up, and I need to make some short films for film festivals.

My directing skills need some more polish to them.

so this is all stuff for me to worry about now...that and getting my diploma, its ridiculous, its been almost 2 1/2 months and De Anza college hasnt mailed me my AA degree. despite the fact I gave them my new address.

*sigh* there is a chance they might have mailed it to my grandparents place and its there waiting for me, but until I know I'm just mad.

hopefully the finally 10-11 days pass swiftly and this time our trip to CA doesnt get screwed over by car trouble. for any questions on that, see my previous entry.